i was wrong

I was wrong.

Such stupid ideas made up in my head.
making me always be so misled.
I freaked out and panicked
thought you were leaving
cause you seemed so far ahead
of our friendship.
you made me believe
that you didn't want any part of it.
so I said what was on my mind.
I held it in to long.. but in the end
I screwed it up, so wrong.
I got the wrong idea of
what was goin' on.
I feel like I shouldn't have said a word.
I need to learn to walk before I run.
I never thought of any of this as much fun.
It was on my mind and couldn't
take it for years to come.
I was wrong to have gone that way.
I was wrong to have said what I did.
I was so wrong to treat a friend that way.
That's just so unlike me.
I can't stand this feeling of shame,
but it's all so true.
You're so truly a special friend.
You're the kind that is there
for them when they need it.
You helped me though life
since i've known you.
Now when I lay my head down to rest,
It's impossible to get any rest.
Just knowing how much of a fool I was
to have said such foolish things to you.
I'm so sorry, you don't even know.
You don't even know how much
you are of a sister to me, pretty much.
Though I felt I was losing you, I had to say something. I didn't wanna lose you, but now
it seems I really lost you so much farther now.
If I could rewind this life, I would change everything.
I'm so sorry, I was wrong.
I was wrong, and I'm really sorry.
Maybe one day you'll see how much
I'm sorry, but just might take a miracle.
Sorry.

Jan 8th 2010